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12:37 pm
June 2, 2012
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missxtangerine: I think I know what your upset about and its true I don't know how to comfort you on that issue. Not because I want to but because every time I try to comfort you it never helps. So what is a person to do if the problem arises? Well I try to stay upbeat and tell you to be strong right? And for these stupid anonymous questions, I always seem to be involved as a bad guy. I just want to say every relationship is different so you cant judge unless you're in it.
why you should just cease to satisfy others: There’s no bad person in this relationship. Again there’s factors outside of our relationship that’s affected us heavily, factors we can’t change unless those people that have caused it changed themselves, and it’s not just our parents.
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3:50 am
June 2, 2012
Anonymous: Why can't you vent to your gf? What's a relationship if you can't even vent to them. It seems like you always forgive her and apologize and try hard but when she has to be there for you she can't besides the more shallow terms of being there for someone
why you should just cease to satisfy others: simply, venting to her would stir another fight. i no longer want to be the cause of her problems, she’s finally moving ahead in life and having the friendships she deserves. at the same time, she’s going through various changes that is also changing a once very detrimental part of our relationship. I won’t say what part here, that’s between me and her, but it was once something me and her grew closer together b/c of.
It’s gone through so many different phases you can’t imagine, where if we flew back in time to ourselves at least 1 year back, our old-selves would castrate us for the way we are now. Too much has changed around us as well, and not for the good. Some of which was never our fault, but rather people who have disappointed us and failed us in their respective roles. It’s hard for neither sides also to accept our relationship which in turn has brought us much heartache. The way either side was brought up, would always bring us trouble.
I know I can always vent to her, and she can always vent to me, it’s been like that for a big portion of our relationship, but our relationship is changing drastically. Some of my own flaws which I’d never thought would be a problem is now catching up to us, and this is something in-born, that can never change unless the political climate of this country changes.
I can’t vent to her some of these problems anymore, because she would be involved in them, and at one point we no longer see eye-to-eye. I no longer want to cause her stress, unrest-fulness, and suffering. I love her too dearly for that, and these problems are not hers to solve b/c she is in no position to. She knows this as well, and this is something I have to figure out on my own.
(i just grew too used to having a close friend, 2 of which, are no longer close to me, and if i do not wish to bestow my problems to her, then who is left but my own monologue. again, something i must solve on my own. but you’re right, I probably shouldn’t post hints of my own troubles on tumblr. For that I’m sorry)
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8:18 pm
June 1, 2012
these kind of moments make me wish i was born in a different country
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10:32 pm
May 24, 2012
btw, this new shit now has been long overdue since HS. everyone been passed that phase and onto different things. i mean why do you think no one “known” shows up.
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1:36 pm
May 21, 2012
This is what I always thought. And I still remember every night, every picture in my head LOL
Besides, how can anyone possibly enjoy all life has to offer when they’re constantly blacking out and forgetting everything? Personally, I want to recall exactly which police car I illegally commandeered and drove into the Hudson River when I wake up, and remember full well what it felt like to kick the window out with my shackled feet so I could swim to the surface before it filled up with water and I drowned. Had I been pumped full of booze and drugs, I’d just be wondering how my clothes got soaking wet and covered in kerosene and why I was in a storeroom behind a riverfront Chinese restaurant with a broken lock on the back door, desperate to find a hacksaw to free my legs. Instead, I have a crystal-clear memory of every special moment that happened that night. It’s all right there in my head.
-From Henry Kaiser “I Don’t Need”
http://www.theonion.com/articles/i-dont-need-drugs-to-have-a-good-time-and-jump-thr,11492/
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7:45 pm
May 13, 2012
Anonymous: ummmm okay??? that was really uncalled for, you just used to be so carefree and upbeat
why you should just cease to satisfy others: awe.
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7:06 pm
May 13, 2012
Anonymous: why are ur tumblr posts always so depressing? :[ cheer up emo kid LOL
why you should just cease to satisfy others: are they? sorry.
you should unfollow me if this bothers you.
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6:59 pm
May 13, 2012
You were supposed to wait for me. So that we could play Co-op for the first time together. Not with someone else. That was the reason I bought you the game remember? I know I’m being childish saying this, but.. it’s just not fair.
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8:07 am
April 16, 2012
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I’m falling apart inside.
I’m trying my hardest to be strong, so I can comfort/protect/support you.
How would I be able to if I’m not strong. I have to be strong.
But if you’re reading this, you should know I’m not okay either.
But I promised I would always comfort you, and this I will do until you’re okay.
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7:16 am
April 16, 2012
Almost puked watching these animal slaughter videos. I think I may commit to being a vegetarian.
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6:41 am
April 16, 2012
Call me an animal freak.. but;
I against eating meat/fish.
My desired meals consists of just fruits/veggies/nuts/dairy.
Honestly you can get protein from milk, from cows. You don’t need to kill the cow to get your protein.
Don’t need to kill chickens, just let them lay their unfertilized eggs and enjoy the gifts these chickens give us.
Stop killing trees/plants. Enjoy the seeds and fruits/produce they give us.
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5:21 am
April 16, 2012
to be honest, it’s people’s egos that piss me off the most.
to cut yourself off from people b/c of too much self-esteem?
that has to be the biggest mistake you could make, b/c success can spawn from
any place.
it’s all on you if you happen to not be apart of it just b/c you thought too highly of yourself.
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3:47 am
April 16, 2012
Anonymous: i can't believe you guys really broke up :(
why you should just cease to satisfy others: me neither.
